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18 April 2004 @ 10:23 pm
Look into the mirror  
I know that I make people worry when I'm down on my appearance, so I need to get this disclaimer out of the way. While I hate individual parts of my body (and man, do I HATE them) I realize that somehow it adds up to a decent lookin' person, in spite of it all. I look killer in short skirts, and I know it. Don't worry about my pitiful little self-esteem, it's perfectly fine.

That out of the way, I've written down everything I hate about myself. This is only physical; it would take a small novel to get into all the personality flaws.


Hair. It's frizzy. It has flyaways. It's too long, but I'm too cheap to pay to have it cut. It's a mix of ash-base and red-based brown, nearly black but not quite. It has been pulled flat at the roots from being pulled back too often when wet, and starts curling at awkward places. I really dislike this hair.

Scalp. Flakey when psoraisis gets out of control, which seems to be always.

Eyes. Too small, and puffy because I never have enough sleep. Gotta wear thick glasses 'cuz I can't see without 'em. Boring color. Usually thick circles under them.

Nose. It's too round at the end.

Lips. Too thin. Prone to chapping.

Teeth. Too yellow and too big.

Skin on face: flaking, riddled with dry patches. What isn't dry is oily and prone to breakouts. Grrrr. Also, my skin is too pale with awkward yellow undertones. I need to darken up, man.

Shoulders have dry patches.

Back is a mess of psoraisis patches and it's rather fuzzy, too. Quite unattractive.

Bust. Very small. Right one is scarred. Something's wrong with the nipples but I'm not sure what.

Belly. It's fatty skin and needs to be tightened. It's fuzzy. Dry patches in two spots.

Belly button. Well, I confess that this sucker's just cute.

Arms. Too thin. They need to be toned, desperately.

Hands. Raul tried to be nice and call them artist hands, but let's face it...they're the hands of an old woman. Too dry and crackin'.

Butt. Doesn't really exist. Kinda flat.

Thighs. Fatty and jiggly. Gross.

Calves. Too small and spindly.

Ankles. I fully expect them to break; they're too small.

Feet. Size 8 is big.

Toes. Too long.

Everywhere: Too hairy if I let hair grow. Psoraisis patches everywhere. Skin's too dry.

Some of that can be fixed, so I'll just work on that. Ferreal. Guess I gotta exercise some more...
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Leishu Lininu_ranma on April 19th, 2004 12:22 am (UTC)
Girl is jus tplain silly. Each part of you is what makes you you, and if all of those parts weren't in just the right order which is that which makes not only the physical you but also the soul that is yours, then you wouldn't be you. I love you, so those parts are important to me and I love them all.
~ * flurr sprite * ~nkicroft on April 19th, 2004 06:09 am (UTC)
lol..you don't even wanna get into MY list of flaws ;) ahh well... i guess i can at least be happy that i'm relatively thin, and haven't gotten the complete mitchem gene and turned into a large obese woman. ;D
Suzik00kaburra on April 19th, 2004 10:14 am (UTC)
Ah, you can't be that big! In all the photos you post you look like a pocket girl - a girl that you can just stick in your pocket and carry home with you. Personally I think you're cute as all hell. :)
~ * flurr sprite * ~nkicroft on April 19th, 2004 11:17 am (UTC)
lol..well lessee..who's the model here? ;)
i'm not like, large or anything..i'm jus flabby as hell. hehe.
Pixlepixle on April 19th, 2004 03:59 pm (UTC)
...if size 8 is big what do you make of 10 or 11? :P