June 22nd, 2001


Guardian Wildlife

Yesterday I had a dentist's appointment, but it was canceled and my Dad forgot so I ended up walking home from the office so I wouldn't have to go with him and my brother to Kaiser to see a doctor as well. (Dad had a full list of things to do.) I decided to take the walk-down-by-the-dirty-filthy-creek route.
As I was walking, this buck with huge horns came down across the creek and stopped to get a drink. I stood there and took a picture of him. (Yes, I had my camera with me. I take it everywhere, hoping it'll break so that my mom will buy me a nice one with "sportsfocus" options.) Then I started walking again, and the deer started walking as well. We were maybe six feet apart, side by side. (It was really cool, don't ya know?)

Now, this creek (which as far as I know hasn't got a name, but if it does it's likely a very stupid name anyway) runs right alongside Redmond/Colemon (can't remember the name of the street) and that road is very twisty and has an average of about one casualty a year because people speed down it. There is glass in the trunk of almost every tree. (I'm exaggerating, but not by much.) So it isn't the safest way to go, and usually I take a different route, but since I had this buck hanging out with me I felt pretty safe.

The buck walked across the creek from me all the way down the road until I had to leave the creek to hop the wall into our little corner of Almaden Valley. It was really cool, since I'd always thought that deer were supposed to be skittish and afraid of people. This guy sure wasn't.

When I got home, I painted my toenails sparkly. Then my family did this little blackout protest thing with the Sierra Club. Basically, we got to sit in the house for three hours doing nothing involving electricity. I started reading my AP English books until all the light was gone, and then I went to sleep early. Very fun. I'm really hating California right now, though.

Forever Love

"Forever Love" has got to be the saddest song in existance. (I'm not 100% sure who sings it...I want to say X Japan, because that's what the MP3 says, but I don't know if that's the band's name, since the movie it's from was X) At eight and a half minutes, it's the Titanic of music. It's beautiful and lovely and it just goes on forever and a day. No matter how cheerful and peppy you were feeling before you heard it, it always drags you down a couple of notches. Oh how I love it.

Anway, here's the Japanese lyrics, with English translation slipped in (bold type) as necessary.
Forever Love
Mou hitori de arukenai
toki no kaze ga tsuyo sugite
Ah kizutsuku koto nante
nareta hazu dakedo ima wa...

Alone I cannot walk
Time's winds are too strong
Ah, it's wounded
I should have gotten used to it, but right now

Ah kono mama dakishimete
nureta mama no kokoro o
kawari tsuzukeru kono toki ni
kawaranai ai ga arunara
Will you hold my heart
namida uketomete
mou koware souna All my heart

Ah, leave me the way I am
My heart, even though damp
At this moment is being changed
If unchanging love exists
Will you hold my heart
Catch my tears
All of my heart is ready to shatter

Forever Love Forever Dream
areru omoi dake ga
tanishiku setsunaku jikan o umezukusu
Oh Tell me why
All I see is blue in my heart
Will you stay with me
kaze ga sugi suru made
mata raretsu All my tears
Forever Love Forever Dream
Kono mama soba ni ite
yoru ke ni areru kokoro o dakishimete
Oh Stay with me

Forever Love Forever Dream
Only overflowing thoughts of love
Please bury all of the terrible, sorrowful time
Oh tell me why
All I see is blue in my heart
Will you stay with me
Until the winds pass
All my tears overflow again
Forever Love Forever Dream
Be with me this way
Please hold my trembling heart until dawn
Oh stay with me

Ah subete ga owareba ii
owari no nai kono yori ni
Ah o umo no nante
nani mo nai anata dake
Forever Love Forever Dream
kono mama soba ni ite
yori ke ni onurieru kokoro o dakishimete
Ah Will you stay with me,br>kaze ga sugi saru made
mou dare yori mo soba ni

Ah, I want this to end
Nothing is ended though in this night
Ah, I am lost
There is nothing...only you exist
Forever Love Forever Dream
Will you stay with me
Hold my trembling heart until dawn
Oh stay with me
Until the wind passes
At this moment, more than anyone I want you with me

Forever Love Forever Dream
kore ijo arukenai
Oh Tell my why Oh Tell me true
oshiete ikeru imi o
Forever Love Forever Dream
areru namida no naka
kagayaku kizetsu ga eien ni kawaru made
Forever Love

Forever Love Forever Dream
I can't go on
Oh tell me why, Oh tell me true
Tell me the meaning of life
These tears overflowing from our relation
Until the seasons change into forever
Forever Love...