On the one hand, I do want the job. But I also want my freedom and my spare time. Dad has upped the amount of money I am given monthly to live off of from my mutual fund, so I don't need to work as much as long as I continue to live prudently and within my means. That leaves my work money to be pure fun money, and at this point I think I would rather have the time over the cash.
This is the first time heading into the holiday season that I don't have two jobs, and when I really reflect on it, I'd like to keep it that way. I really want to focus on school through the next academic term, so that I can finally get an internship over the summer. I am willing to live with less money to achieve that. I am willing to give up a title to do that.
I would be worried if we didn't have someone competant to take my place, but luckily Janelle will do an excellent job managing the stock team; if I can work with her anyone can. She's also physically stronger than me, which is a necessary part of the job and where I secretly know I just can't cut it. I can't lift heavier props and boxes, which can be a serious problem. So it is better this way, I think.
I am a bit disappointed, but it'll work out in the end.
I also bought a new organizer for school from Filofax. It's not as nice as the leather ones I was initially eyeing, but it is more affordable and pretty darn cute.