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27 April 2007 @ 11:03 am
Waaah, waaah, poor me.  
Whenever I randomly think of somebody now, I automatically go to MySpace to try and find them. But then since I don't actually like MySpace and rarely use it, I never respond to the messages I receive. That must make me some sort of jerk.

I've been surfing a wave of loneliness this week. I haven't been too bad, but sometimes I just look around at my co-workers and wonder, "Why can't we be friends?" I never used to think my social skills were so retarded, but I can't seem to hold a conversation with half of the people I work with. I don't remember having this same problem when I was at Bath & Body Works, so is it just this particular group of people that I can't seem to get along with very well?
I only have one co-worker who seems to actively dislike me. To the rest, I'm just not very interesting or possibly I'm just invisible. Just one of those people in the woodwork, a little strange and very quiet (and sometimes talks to herself) but gets the work finished.
Maybe I should be more disruptive? I was raised not to interrupt someone talking, so if two people are having a very eager conversation I can't get a word in edgewise. But then, half the time I don't really know the subject matter, because I don't go clubbing and don't listen to the same music and etc.

Should I just start randomly talking about things I like and hope someone else joins in? AWKWARD.
But then so is the silence that often follows when I'm working with the younger folks at the store.
jeanniejeannietran on April 30th, 2007 12:19 pm (UTC)
because BBW had awesome people like me. your new work seems lame. i'll be home on thurs!
Suzik00kaburra on April 30th, 2007 04:14 pm (UTC)
Hooray! I'm super-excited :)
whimsicalbeauwhimsicalbeau on May 4th, 2007 01:21 am (UTC)
Hey wait now, look at the evidence!
How can you be socially retarded? You date me! I'm socially obsessed! I freak out if there is a peroid of silence longer than 35 seconds! If you can keep up with me, you have to have social skills.

And I know you do - Okay, I guess you do have a hard time "clicking" with new people sometimes, but as soon as you do, you are a great friend - I always had a lot of fun with you.

I think it's more of a ... thing. I mean, they are into Hyphy and Clubing and things you generally arent into that much. Are they really a good match to be your friends?
And further, you are pretty serious about your Job at lush, and your "friend mode," the way you act around Kitty, Kristen, your Family, and myself is very youthful and fun, but not very professional or appropriate in a work enviroment.

You had a good in-between mode going at BBW, but you didn't have a smuch responsiblity there either, and it was a different enviroment.

I think...