I've been surfing a wave of loneliness this week. I haven't been too bad, but sometimes I just look around at my co-workers and wonder, "Why can't we be friends?" I never used to think my social skills were so retarded, but I can't seem to hold a conversation with half of the people I work with. I don't remember having this same problem when I was at Bath & Body Works, so is it just this particular group of people that I can't seem to get along with very well?
I only have one co-worker who seems to actively dislike me. To the rest, I'm just not very interesting or possibly I'm just invisible. Just one of those people in the woodwork, a little strange and very quiet (and sometimes talks to herself) but gets the work finished.
Maybe I should be more disruptive? I was raised not to interrupt someone talking, so if two people are having a very eager conversation I can't get a word in edgewise. But then, half the time I don't really know the subject matter, because I don't go clubbing and don't listen to the same music and etc.
Should I just start randomly talking about things I like and hope someone else joins in? AWKWARD.
But then so is the silence that often follows when I'm working with the younger folks at the store.