Suzi (k00kaburra) wrote,

Mathematical Breakdown

I have never had this happen before, and it's freaking me out.

When I take math tests for this class, Finite Mathematics, I just panic. Before the test my hands start shaking and I'm practically hyperventilating. I get so nervous. This is not me. I don't freak out about tests. But in this particular class, with so much riding on the grade (i I don't get a C or better, I lose my transfer status to SJSU) I think I'm starting to lose it.

Then I actually get the test, and my brain just shatters into pieces. I can't remember the formulas, or if I remember them I don't recall which problems to use them with. I get flustered, and make stupid mistakes. I forget how to use the programs on my calculator. I'm just falling apart in my desk.
This is not me. I don't freak out about tests.

I'm terrified that I won't pass. I HAVE to pass. I mean, another year at DeAnza is utterly depressing. But after my poor performance on the test today, it's looking like a serious possibility. So I'm trying to keep my hopes up for math, but also realistically approach the problem of what to do if I am no longer eligible to go to SJSU.
Tags: deanza, math, sjsu

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