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16 June 2010 @ 04:32 pm
Mathematical Breakdown  
I have never had this happen before, and it's freaking me out.

When I take math tests for this class, Finite Mathematics, I just panic. Before the test my hands start shaking and I'm practically hyperventilating. I get so nervous. This is not me. I don't freak out about tests. But in this particular class, with so much riding on the grade (i I don't get a C or better, I lose my transfer status to SJSU) I think I'm starting to lose it.

Then I actually get the test, and my brain just shatters into pieces. I can't remember the formulas, or if I remember them I don't recall which problems to use them with. I get flustered, and make stupid mistakes. I forget how to use the programs on my calculator. I'm just falling apart in my desk.
This is not me. I don't freak out about tests.

I'm terrified that I won't pass. I HAVE to pass. I mean, another year at DeAnza is utterly depressing. But after my poor performance on the test today, it's looking like a serious possibility. So I'm trying to keep my hopes up for math, but also realistically approach the problem of what to do if I am no longer eligible to go to SJSU.
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Crafter and Mom Extraordinare!exousia on June 17th, 2010 06:27 am (UTC)
could be anxiety disorder...

This happens to me too. I took an exam once and I got so sick I handed in my university final exam practically blank. I was in a cold sweat and couldn't stop bawling. It was a nightmare.
jeanniejeannietran on June 17th, 2010 11:06 pm (UTC)
Any chance for extra credit or make-up tests? Maybe if you explain to the teacher how important it is for you to pass, and that you're willing to do the work, maybe he/she will work something out with you?
Suzik00kaburra on June 18th, 2010 04:22 pm (UTC)
No dice.
He's very hard line. He laid out the expectations and requirements on the first day of class, and he doesn't deviate from them for anything. That doesn't really bother me, because I respect teachers that don't bend to every student's whining whims, but it does make things more difficult.