First off, how can anyone consider suicide? What right have you to be so miserable? You have been given a beautiful chance, a wonderful opportunity. In the great expanse of time which is eternity, you are here. You are alive, here and now in 2000. You will only get a tiny flash of time, a single heartbeat of the universe, and then you will be gone. Why cut your precious existance short?
You have no excuse for whatever situation you are in. Get out of it. If you have an abusive father, call the police. Get him locked up. A foster home would be better. If you're poor, do well in school. Maybe you can ride on a scholarship somewhere. At the very least, you'll have enough basic skills to get a job. Drugs? Check into rehab. No matter how poor a spot you're in, you can do something about it. If you can't think of anything, leave me a note and I will tell you what to do.
You need to find yourself. If you don't know who you are, you can't expect to know anything else, either. If you don't like yourself, consider a change in lifestyle, not an end. Everything resonates with its own vibe...find yours.
You are surrounded by beauty. Open your eyes and see it. Outside, the trees are shedding their leaves of gold and red and brown. The proud skeleton remains, defiant and refusing to fall as it stands naked to the cold. The snow is falling. In each snowflake is a city, beautiful and sparkling clean. The trees will be green again. Let nature take you back.
It doesn't have to hurt. Why cut yourself when you give your pain away? Pick up a pebble, and whisper to it all your fears and worries. Then throw the stone away into a stream, a lake, a river. As the pebble sinks and rolls away, it takes your problems with you. You're free. As the rock you tossed will be washed clean and smooth, so have you been cleansed.
You are what you make of yourself. You choose your destiny. Go in peace, seek the Lord. God will not abandon those who ask sincerely for His forgiveness and help.
But He will turn his back on those who throw His greatest gift away. Only He gave life, and only He should have the power to take it.